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Nimawanachen

by Niock

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Last I heard you were havin' a ball, well I think that's swell. I don't give a damn what you're doin', as long as you're doin' it well Well I've been busy starin' at the wall and the broken tile It's been one year, three months, and eight days since I've seen your smile Well just don't sweat, I don't care at all Please don't leave a message on my phone In my life I've got some crazy shit To tell you the truth, I don't need you to add to it If this life were arithmetic I'd be multiplication, you'd be long division Left a note to self as I was smokin' a cig and I saw the show I guess you're somethin' big and I guess I should have known That despite their motivation, everyone has to grow Pencils down, the test is done and I've scored to shun Well just don't sweat, I don't care at all Please don't leave a message on my phone In my life I've got some crazy shit To tell you the truth, I don't need you to add to it If this life were arithmetic I'd be multiplication, you'd be long division And you know I've never been good at long division But I don't care - you've got my calculator It was one divided by the other Well just don't sweat, I don't care at all Please don't leave a message on my phone In my life I've got some crazy shit To tell you the truth, I don't need you to add to it If this life were arithmetic I'd be multiplication, you'd be long division
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Weary boy Pick up the hammer I think it's time To finally hit the nails When you've walked your way For far too long The change is so hard Remember those bridgeways If you're so tired If you're so bored Then beg yourself to move Plead yourself to breathe When you've hit rock bottom Hit rock bottom Dead end - dead ahead
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Wait For Me 02:37
When the grey of the road meets the grey of the sky That's where I'll be waiting with my arms folded like the Buddha, baby Just so you know I love the cold and the rain, and everything in between When things don't go my way Everything just so happens to turn grey Will you wait for me? Will you wait for ME? Will you wait for me? Will you wait for ME? In the handsome light that the sun does shine into your pretty bloodshot eyes Is burned into my memory lines like some shitty poem burning rhyme by rhyme Just so you know I love the cold and the rain, and everything in between When things don't go my way Everything just so happens to turn grey Will you wait for me? Will you wait for ME? Will you wait for me? Will you wait for ME? Well they say education costs money baby Well look around and learn baby, they can't take that away from me Just so you know I love the cold and the rain, and everything in between When things don't go my way Everything just so happens to turn grey Will you wait for me? Will you wait for ME? Will you wait for me? Will you wait for ME?
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Two Choices 02:14
A long time ago someone once told me I was different That's something I don't see, see I look no differently Than anyone on the street It's just me, and I Have Two choices And I Could be Two people But I am me And I guess I'm happy And this is the end - I don't think I can end all the sorrow in just one song But I have two choices: end or go along End or go along End or go along
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Bug 03:42
What do you want, when ya gonna ask it of me You want my money, and my time Grass is greener when I got a better thing and You wanna be on the greener side Tell it to the men who give a shit about it Tell it to your mother who is on your mind Shove it on the people who can care for you dude Don't leave it up to me because I'm doin' fine .... you want to bug me Everything sucks and you cannot stand it Nothing makes you happy It's my problem isn't it buggy When I'm inside, you are outside When I am present, you are absent You can hate me, I don't really care It's what you do to others that is buggin me All the dirty garbage that you spew in their face When you gonna get a mop and bucket and clean I can see you, acting like you own it all Lookin in the mirror walkin' down the street Break your fuckin mirror and just look around man Your life is your problem it is not on me ...... you want to bug me Everything sucks and you cannot stand it Nothing makes you happy It's my problem isn't it buggy When I'm inside, you are outside When I am present, you are absent All you really want is for someone to hold you Then get up off the couch and get out of the house But no, you gotta sit here stewing in shit dude Hoping people care what you're freakin about Let me ask you one singular question What do you want in your life right now All you're doing now is bein an asshole So don't look to me because I'm fucking out .... you want to bug me Everything sucks and you cannot stand it Nothing makes you happy It's my problem isn't it buggy When I'm inside, you are outside When I am present, you are absent
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let it out let it in let it go let it win let it happen until you never think of it again Just yesterday I did the same thing That I do every day again and again Sometimes you have to let it happen Go with the grain until it all sets in let it happen until you never think of it again What happens after everything stops What will I do with my time Maybe you have to let it happen And eventually it will all unwind Let it happen until you run out of time
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The Branch 02:18
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Noosphere 03:42
Through the great veil At the end of these years They giggle in wait Of what we will know The Noosphere awaits Together we think The galaxy speaks We are not in reality Of what we call time We make the world live By measuring everything By creating life The Noosphere awaits Together we think The galaxy speaks We are not in reality In wisdom they play Our minds with our history To push us toward the sun Which they resonate from The Noosphere Awaits Together we think, yeah The galaxy speaks We are not in reality Maia, I see your eye I want to rip the veil Maia, I've waited so long To see what you've shown Maia, the day draws near When we will all be here
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On Your Road 02:19
I saw you brushin' your hair this mornin' From the back as far as anyone could see You could have been anyone I've ever seen You could have been anything But you said you saw the trees Had yourself an epiphany Said you'd go for a while On your road you may see me again And when you were gone I looked at that same tree I tried to figure out exactly what I'd seen Then I realized I was looking with my eyes Then I closed them and saw my own dreams And you said that we were going to your castles in the sand That we would stand above them and pour water over them And if you think that I miss you, well, you are wrong Cause I get along just fine since you've been gone And I say, and I say You said you saw the trees Had yourself an epiphany Said you'd go for a while On your road you may see me again
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How difficulties plague us when we're at our utmost confidence. When we're safe in our shells, somebody comes along and gives us the big one. The sound of what we've made is our only comfort in a dark place, and adding to our secret meaning is our only escape. We lovingly wander this earth of ours, barefoot, in search of any and all who would be with us on our journey through our many natures. Some are violently loving; many are the love of violence. The trees and the wind are our inanimate lovers and we yearn for more and more and more. When we think of the ocean we think of home because when we grew legs to be with the land we missed it so. Little by little, those that would have use be silenced pinch at our minds with their fatal thinking while we dance in fields of large, green clovers. Again, barefoot so our conduit to the earth is not shielded. Our cosmos is that of chaos and beauty. To assume otherwise is not what we do; we are in love. We love the ways of this absurd existence, and why not? To assume that there is no love is not what we do. We are IN love.
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Roundhouse 01:05
Everything you say is So lame I'm runnin' so fast tryin' to Get away When I turn back around and see you Up in my shit I just wanna reach back and do a Roundhouse kick I was ten years old and the world was great I was writin' sci-fi by the second grade But you stood behind me and you criticized So I grabbed a rubber band and snapped you in your eye When I enjoy flowers or chardonnay Nothin' stops you, you're in my way I try to be nice and just walk back up But you seem to have a craving for an uppercut A triple suplex or a piledriver It's like nothin' to you, you're in denial I'd advise you to stay far away from me But you really really like to get kicked in the spleen Oh, oh oh, oh Firefly was an excellent show But I prefer Breaking Bad, you know
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I put my head out Of my hidden place I put my line out Into the Aether Try to find a Good connection Try to send my Line out to someone I have to find anything with which to make a connection To keep me tethered to this strange existence I see the wave come It's rising on the cusp I see horizons Bigger than everything The balls of energy Streaming right through me The wall is there It is tall, but impossibly I have to find anything with which to make a connection To keep me tethered to this strange existence When you see me lying there in my comfy chair what do you see but a man inside a comfy chair? He looks at the sun, he looks at the moon - what does he see? Who knows? It's just a bunch of things. When you see me lying there in my comfy chair what do you see? Do you see a man? Well, I'll tell you one thing - it's not a man, it's a bag of particles and I have to live in this strange existence. I am on the other plane I'm on the outer rim I am the drop of Liquid existence Into the fair wave Particles crashing Events so small They did not happen at all I have to find anything with which to make a connection To keep me tethered to this strange existence Ahhhhh - HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaAAAAaaaaaaaaahhhhhh
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Niock: I was drivin' through the cemetary late one night The moonlight lit the path and I developed a fright Saw myself in a hole in a coffin in the ground So to distract my worried mind I took a look around I saw flowers in the gutter that had blown from the graves They used to be on a tombstone but got blown by the waves of the wind and erosion that will get to my skin In about ten years I'll be pathetic and thin My skin like paper and my mind pickled with lime My thoughts random and erratic Sourced from some other time My past playing like a movie on a film in my eyes No one can see the memories; I keep them inside When I see the old people all crippled in their bed I just remember that in time that will be me instead What? You think I want to be dead? No, I drink 'cause I lack feeling of purpose; the dread Hits me like a million tons of lectures at TED The news comes at me like a negative tornado that sucks in all the light I've got to remind myself that in the turmoil Something's gotta be right Something's gotta be right Something's gotta be right I never know because every day just feels like My darkest night Karsten: I awaken in the morning and spring up to the floor And see the sandman before he drops the sleep rocks And see spots, rub my eyes and rummage through my drawer for my neat socks And then the beat drops Email notifier tellin' me I gotta see Nickdawg Brought the beat box and it rocks it can't stop hits hard kicks nards on guard and then it falls off HA HA HA Spring clocks forward and make time Crisp out air is clear and so is my mind I might've wanted to get ready for the weekend but instead I'm snoozin, sleepin, hittin' rewind and in my mind it'll be fine No new territory here I'm like the Magellan of singin' to the air Blind art. My audience is the aether But hey no biggie I don't like my voice either I sound like Weezer on paper but then my neighbors think I'm havin' a seizure but they don't see me up in here with my experimental mental note and hey that's my nature and Oh honey I shrunk my head with a laseeeerrr ---------- Something's gotta be right Something's gotta be right Something's gotta be right I never know because every day just feels like My darkest night ---------- Karsten: I sound like Weezer on paper but then my neighbors think I'm havin' a seizure but they don't see me up in here with my experimental mental note and hey that's my nature and Oh honey I shrunk my head with a laseeeerrr --------- Something's gotta be right Something's gotta be right Something's gotta be right I never know because every day just feels like My darkest night
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We Are Ours 02:16
Take my hand Go down to the shed Lay the blanket down Cradle your head Tell you all the things that you wanna hear Tell you about the time that we met at work And I'll talk with you 'Til the moon goes down ---- We'll take a walk Down to the bridge Hear the passing cars Pretend it's a stream Now I don't believe in heaven and I don't believe in ghosts I put my highest faith in whom I love the most And that's you We will not fall away ---- Used to be by myself Hide in a room But when I took all your pens I returned them to you We started laughing and then you looked up Your eyes were bright and happy when I drew on your cup I yearned to call on you But I did not know ---- Now you and I We're a pair of tens If we've done all the things I want to do them again In your eyes I see the future and I can't get enough I want to be with you until the sky burns up The world is bright and blue When your hand is close to mine
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Wash It 02:10
The weighted forks are nice Until you tip it toward the edge Then you'll have to wash it Again and again And when you touch it raw The surface is no longer cleansed Then you'll have to wash it It will never end
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All of the parties want to kill you mang All of the parties want to fuck your money Every single one of them is broke and fucked Every single one of them will fuck you badly Have you not heard how the story ends man It's a buncha fuckin' shit I'll tell you All of the rich get richer motherfucker All of the rich wanna kill motherfuckers All I see is you is sittin' out goin' bad now All I see is you as an ape goin' mad now It ain't nothin' But a purple Urkel Circle Jerkel We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die But why? Why? Why?? WHY??? It ain't nothin' But a purple Urkel Circle Jerkel
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Apatholypse 05:12
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Last I heard you were havin' a ball, well I think that's swell. I don't give a damn what you're doin', as long as you're doin' it well Well I've been busy starin' at the wall and the broken tile It's been one year, three months, and eight days since I've seen your smile Well just don't sweat, I don't care at all Please don't leave a message on my phone In my life I've got some crazy shit To tell you the truth, I don't need you to add to it If this life were arithmetic I'd be multiplication, you'd be long division Left a note to self as I was smokin' a cig and I saw the show I guess you're somethin' big and I guess I should have known That despite their motivation, everyone has to grow Pencils down, the test is done and I've scored to shun Well just don't sweat, I don't care at all Please don't leave a message on my phone In my life I've got some crazy shit To tell you the truth, I don't need you to add to it If this life were arithmetic I'd be multiplication, you'd be long division And you know I've never been good at long division But I don't care - you've got my calculator It was one divided by the other Well just don't sweat, I don't care at all Please don't leave a message on my phone In my life I've got some crazy shit To tell you the truth, I don't need you to add to it If this life were arithmetic I'd be multiplication, you'd be long division

about

(First, a tip: most of the tracks have a little backstory in the "info" link, but if a track has lyrics listed, only the "lyrics" link shows. Click on the name of the song to see both the info and the lyrics if you want to see the stories.)

After most of the material for Goodbye Mr. Mayfly's original age was recorded (goodbyemrmayfly.bandcamp.com) and after all of my thematic side projects were concluded, I began to piece together how I wanted to create music more cohesively (which is to say, without a set theme but within the weird matrix of my more defined style). When not recording with my normal music partners, I worked on material such as what you'll find on this album.

This represents a connection of the final set of older Niock recordings (pre-2018) such as "Long Division" and this first wave of current songs (2018 - 2019) such as "Wash It".

Everything was recorded at my makeshift home studio, as usual, or sometimes out in the field and mastered later at home. Most of the older tracks in here were remastered from the original DAW files, so this is the first time anyone (including myself) is hearing them as they were intended to be heard.

"Nimawanachen" is a Lenape word that means "one who begins a great journey" and was the name given to me by my best friend, as I in turn named him during a fireside ceremony on a creek bank when we were kids.

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released July 13, 2019

Niock - Various Instruments, Vocals, squeals, wails, whistles, synth and engineering.

Karsten - Awesome rap on "Somethin's Gotta Be Right (Feat. Karsten)" and awesome solos on "Forever Never Loving You (Instrumental, Feat. Karsten)"

Album art painted by Niock around 2007 and carried through life to its current location on the studio door, then finally digitized and arranged for this purpose.

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Niock Carthage, Missouri

Niock is a largely experimental and sometimes sentimental artist from Missouri. You're invited to plumb the depths and the shallows for succor and entertainment.

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